sooo, in other news, i am not entirely sure of where the past two months of my life have gone.  I lost my job on november 18th, and it is now january 6th. i am currently on unemployment, in limbo of being covered by health insurance, and just had to apply for food stamps. good lord, is this my life?? 

i mean, it could be worse. i also get to craft all day for days at a time and make cards, organize my collections, paint, drink tea, label things, 

you know, the important things in life.  for instance, this week i cleaned up a paint tarp that was up in our dining room- and it was quite a project, i had been working back and forth on 16 different things and had paper and tape and ink and all sorts of other shit in 20 different boxes all over the place. .. and it was a mess. so i put everything away and re organized myself, and even brought our dining room table and chairs back upstairs as a surprise while pj was at work one night. i’ve been doing other things this week to occupy myself, but it is really just not the same as going to work, having a job, and getting a real paycheck. i mean seriously, i am torn because i am looking for work, and if i find something that fits i will take it. but i am also still looking for work in the same thing i was doing, and i always say that i am done but then i just end up going back. 

i can’t decide if it’s because i’m strong willed and resilient, or if i am just insane, and not learning . oh life.